i think im a christian

im not sure, mostly. i go through spurts-like weeks where i am one, and then i slip back into not really being one. i really like the feeling of being able to talk to god whenever i want, and pray but i also like not being one, its so much easier, really, way easier, to drink and hangout, speak in expletives, stare at women inappropriately. Lately though, i have to admit, it feels like im being pursued by god. this feels great.